100th post. happy at all. cried till my eyes became smaller and swollen last night. my mood is totally spoilt. why are there no one for me to talk to, to vent my frustrations to? feeling so lonely;; alone. im just like a stupid retarded bird being locked up in a cage, and i can't even do the things i want to do. being restricted and stuffs like that. i wanted so badly to go to the beach. i want the wind to blow all my unhappiness away. and why can't my tears just stop flowing out of my eyes. why? why? why? nobody. not even a single one. i just want to scream out loud. cry out loud. sing out loud. but why can't i? why? i don't even have the priority to do that right? cmon, music, just calm me down. you're the only thing that i can depend on. soothing vocals and music.

typing aimlessly, just feeling so random.


help me