school's really stressful. and sometimes it's just too tough to carry on. for the past few days, i've lost the motivation and drive to do my work, study and even to revise. and i've been stoning more than ever. i screwed the chem lecture test on tues and it made me broke down. cried like nobody's business. that is the first time that i felt super terribly miserable. and it's not only chem, it's all other subjects too. i've been failing econs like countless times, physics and now even math is killing. i don't understand the topics taught and the syllabus is really suffocating me.

we've got so much things to do but yet i don't know which one to start off first. promos is coming so super soon and im seriously not prepared for it. term3's really a tough tough term. even the teachers are struggling to scrape through.

but im filled with gratitude to my friends that have encouraged me with all those supportive words. thank you all for listening to all my grumblings and complaints. thanks. without the help of you guys, i think i would still be drowning in that stone and emo state. thanks for teaching me ways on how i can deal with stress. thanks and i won't play with barbie dolls! -.- and im feeling motivated once again! :D Thank you especially to winson, juffri, weijie and chunkai (you and your "玩玩就好, 不要太认真" logic -.-) .

and also thank you to all my friends who are concerned over my aching calve muscle that has been there for the past one month or so. please don't worry, i'll be going to the doc soon, and i mean real soon, i promise. Thank you especially to the girls. :D

thank you ms au, you're not considered as a teacher but in actual fact, you're a friend in our hearts. :D thank you for being so concerned about me, i really appreciate it loads. i hope that you would get enough rest too. i'm sorry for the terrible grades that i am producing currently. i promise that i would definitely do my best for the promos. and i won't stone during your lessons again! =X Thank you.

sometimes life's already difficult to carry on but yet you just wouldn't let me off. i seriously hope that you would stop all of your naggings and just let me have some peace and quiet to do my work and to study. if you want to express your concern, you can do it in a much better way, not like what you're doing now. if not i think i would seriously break down again and who knows what i would do...

there's teachers' day celebration tmr and so i can afford to slack a lil today. gotta go do work again later. sept hols are nearing but we've got schooling from the 2nd to 4th.

collected the nike+ human race kit on sunday and gosh, we spent more than 5 hours queueing for that bag! -.- whole day wasted. walked and played under the rain with those crazy peeps and oh my, i had loads of fun! :D cam-whored and seriously, it was hilarious. (: shall post the photos up some other time. (:

speaking about the nike race, it's coming on this sunday. feeling super excited alr! :DDDD but i'm afraid that i can't run as it has been quite awhile since i last ran 15k on the 2aug. i need to run more tmr morning! :D but what to do? my aching calve muscle... it still hurts badly. *sigh*


Dear Lord, please grant me strength, courage and perseverance to carry on. Amen.